Life has pretty much settled into a routine that either flies or churns day after day. Ever since February it seems like I've been rushing around from one place to another, constantly moving, moving, then crashing when energy or time runs out. But finally I've settled into a pace that seems quite constant. For this period at least, it's a welcome reprieve.
Getting used to a rhythm means AC feels a little more like MG- it means familiarity. Maybe that's why AC is starting to feel more like home now. (Even though nothing can replace MG ever.)
5.30am- wake up
6.45- meet Jan to take bus together
7.30- assembly and
lessons- Jaimie for lit, Yiling for math, Yingthong for ELL, the boys and Maryann for chem
3+- study / CCA
8.30- reach home and have dinner
Today, lit lesson with Ice Queen was one of the most enjoyable ones I've had so far, which is really cool. I super love that analysing poems now comes with this wonderful thing called context, and hence we don't just view the poem in isolation, but also bring in concepts formed in history to supplement that understanding. Our current theme is neo-platonic love, an 'ideal' love that's above eros, because it's a unification of two minds. An intellectual love. It's also unattainable, because if the two lovers were ever to meet, that would mean consummation of love, and hence devalues the coming together, debasing it.
So more than just a perfect love, it's also an impossible one. How amazing is that?
The circle of life is broken by some irregularities, like studying with gym boy today, and I'm glad that he doesn't mind taking pains to answer my stupid Chemistry questions and putting up with my sometimes unnecessary pissed off moods. (To be fair, that only happened twice so far, plus I don't even get angry that often at all.) I've been thinking about who are the guys that I'm closest to in school, and that would probably be him just because we went through orientation together, which automatically means mutual friends without even trying, and we actually allocate time to hang with each other, indicating some effort is being made and with that the implication of friendship. I don't do that much small talk with the MD5 boys because they're simply so joke-y and jock-y that it feels a bit strange. For NOW. I have 2 years to force my overbearing, giggling person upon them and make them talk to me. Buckle your seatbelts cos you're in for a ride.
Males aside, I've been getting on much better terms with the girlies in class. I discovered that Maryann is actually HILARIOUS, and when we're together the laughter is infectious and unstoppable. Liyana is basically a meme. Today I made Jaimie laugh for what might be the first time too. That is some real progress. MD5 really does have potential. I CAN SEE IT!!!
L / 18 / SG / undetermined
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