It's 1.35am and I'm about to pull a near all-nighter because
1) I fell asleep from 9.30pm-12.30am effectively which seriously messed up my study schedule plan, which included a sleeping time of 4 hours. I already used up 3 hours out of 4 so I can only sleep for one more hour, probably 3-4, in order to keep within the planned studying hours. And all this for
2) my 2 Continual Assesments tomorrow, one ELL and one Chem. Otherwise known as Hell On Earth, because I can't even just sit and crap it out for ELL, it's P2SA, meaning I legitimately have to apply lots of content knowledge and name drop like nobody's business. As for Chemistry, everyone knows it's a struggle through and through, but I really wanted this test to be different. Not even aiming for a pass, but just something better than a U, and more importantly a test that I could really apply myself to, instead of giving up in despair like all the tests before this. And it's painful because I really wanted to try, and succeed.
I actually had to stop myself from crying multiple times today, mostly because Ms So asked me questions which I couldn't answer and cos it's Ms So, and I hate disappointing her.
I haven't written much at all these past few weeks, in here or in my diary. JC has swallowed up so much of my time and energy that when I do have time I have no energy, and all I want to do is sit around and use my phone or go to precious sleep.
Energy, on the other hand, is hard to come by.
God give strength to us all.
L / 18 / SG / undetermined
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