Today is such a restless day. Maybe it was the inordinate amount of coffee powder I put in my morning milo, or my mind's in such a state it just won't calm down. My heart too. All of it.
The biggest event of today is my english oral, which I thought would be...I don't know. Never had much thoughts about oral because the topic is so interchangeable, it's unpredictable. I mean, I speak english everyday, so it's not as if I'm doing something totally new. Imagine if they asked us to speak in Urdu or something. As I was waiting, I kept thinking, it's just some people asking about me, so you've just got to know yourself, right!
It's strange how you can speak really eloquently in front of your peers but when your speech has to be examined you suddenly become tongue-tied. Like when I'm debating with Dorcas over the dinner table, thoughts and rebukes come quickly. It's natural. The words form in your mouth even before you know what they are. Snap! Just like that. Whatever happened to fluid conversation?
The second biggest event is that Dorcas is FLYING TO AUSTRALIA! To visit Em. They're going to go out together and have lots of yummy nosh and have fun. It would have been the best birthday treat ever, but I also happen to be a middle class student whose mom doesn't believe in getting things for granted. I so wish it was me. Dorcas said she wanted me to come too, because she's scared of travelling alone.
It'll be her first time today. I can't wait for my first. I think it's going to be a huge adventure.
I would give anything to be in Aussie right now, in that apartment in suburban Sydney, where it's brilliantly cold, and I can be snuggled up in long sleeved pyjamas and with my grandparents. I miss my grandma & grandpa. (You're not supposed to have favorites but my mum's side are SO LOVELY. I love them to death. It's not fair all my relatives live overseas.) I especially miss Sydney skies, when it sets it was a mixture of the deepest blue, pink, purple.....
L / 18 / SG / undetermined
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last updated: 5 september